the sky is the limit

false.

summer 2010. brough to you by an A in Linguistics and a B in New Testament. thank OBU, you've been real. real something. real fun. real exciting. real... tangible? ostensibly, this is correct. (thanks dr. armond! in more ways than one!)

ah, the rambling. shall it never end? i had plans this summer. big plans, big, high flying plans. Sky Ranch was on the agenda, as was some swimming lessons and some lifeguarding. all viable, normal options for a summer. correct?

false.

let me preface this... in the beginning, ah, no no too far back... to be an adult - much better - you have to be responsible. yes, yes, responsible. but you also need to follow God's direction for your life. this can seem contradictory at times, trust me. God has a plan though, and he always sees it through. i thought his plan was for me to go to Sky Ranch this summer. but alas, he has decided otherwise.

you see... i've always had this "silver platter" mentality, as well as the notion that i'm somehow endowed to that. in this society and with the pressures around me, i've become that snobby, yuppy, priveleged, "my parents will pay for it" kid that i have always despised. yes, it's true. how is that okay? well it's not. not for me anyway. i've let it effect all that i am. i've let it taint my relationships. i've let it get in the way of seeing just exactly who God wants me to be. i was caught up in the Chaco hype. in the awesome-summer-plans hype. i was caught up in something that was not my Christ, even though i so desperately wanted it to be.

so where does this leave me? well... it leaves me with no money, a degraded sense of self-worth, an attitude adjustment, and a mission field that is my every-day. i gave up Sky Ranch to make money for the upcoming fall. truth is: camp doesn't pay much and i can't afford to take a job that doesn't pay much. i'm not missing out on a missions opportunity because my life is a mission. i see 1000+ a day where i work and i interact with most of them. i've been looking for the BIG ACT God's had in store for me and quite frankly (and oh so dissapointingly) i've missed the fact that it's been right under my nose this whole time.

God's dropped me here in Independence with dashed hopes (in something i shouldn't have had my hopes in), few friends, and no school. just me, my family, and the ability to make or break my adulthood.

i've decided to grow up, no wait, God's decided it's time for me to grow up. i'd like to ask you all to pray for me in this crazy adventure ahead. i've discovered a lot of chinks in my armor and getting a new one is hard to adjust to.

I'm praying for you guys to. i'm excited for you guys who are going to camp! those of you going on mission trips! those of you staying home and working! those of you getting married! those of you LIVING this mondane life God has given us! keep your eyes OPEN! his blessings are out there EVERY DAY ALL THE TIME.